You know you are

1. Obsessed when you
a) Youtube said obsession
b) Google said obsession
c) Collect said obsession's pictures and realised what hair and clothes and expression work for said obsession (of course, please remember that I'm an amateur, so my opinions might not carry much weight)
d) Spent the last hour and so reading about said obsession's blogs even though they aren't very interesting

2. Vain when you
a) Start thinking about what hairstyle you want to cut the next time you visit the hair salon even though your hair isn't long enough to be even thinking about cutting
b) Mentally think about the clothing that you have in your wardrobe and categorising them into different style depending on what kind of image you want to portray
c) Start mentally thinking up potentials outfits with the clothes you currently have for places that you don't even go to
d) Think of all the accessories you have in your collection or the colours that you could have painted on your nails if you are not lazy

3. Homesick when you
a) Think about your dogs and thought about what to tell them when you see them
b) Brainstorm on the ways to annoy your sister and brother while you are at it
c) Consider about the things that you want to eat once you get back
d) Desperately miss your baby, your bed, your blanket, your room, and everything that's just not here with you right now

4. Bored when you
a) Youtube a lot
b) Google a lot
c) Facebook a lot
d) Sing till your throat starts to feel funny
e) Spend your precious 20 minutes writing stuff like you know you are obsessed/vain/homesick/bored when you

The Doctor

Finally, after one month of cold, and yes, my body is kinda slow when it comes to building up immunity towards cold, I have decided to go see a doctor.

So, what gives?

Well, initially I wasn't really that worried about the cold, since, like I said, my body takes forever to build up immunity towards cold, so I am used to having long term cold anyways. Besides, I know the reason for my cold, and it's not H1n1, so I wasn't that wary. Besides, I have always believed that if my time is up, no matter what I do, I probably can't escape it anyways.

So, anyways, I was happily ignoring the cold, well, not that happily, since I did constantly check that I don't suddenly burn up with fever, but anyways, I developed a cough outta nowhere last night. Really! Just outta nowhere, I just started coughing, and my cold seemed to have gotten worse too.

Though there wasn't fever, I was starting to get a bit worried, not to mention annoyed. Cold, one, I can handle. Cold and cough, two, NO, I don't want to handle. So, I finally got my lazy ass to the clinic and have a checkup.

Like I expected, it wasn't H1N1, duh, but then again, the doctor was kinda funny. The clinic was empty save for me and another patient, and when I went inside the room, the doc had his mask under his chin instead of properly covering his nose and mouth.

So this is me. "Hi Doc, I have been having cold for the past month."

And he immediately pulled his mask up over his nose and mouth.

LOL.

And then he asked, "Have you been outstation for the last month?"

Me: "No, my body just takes forever to build up immunity towards cold. Then yesterday, suddenly, I had cough. So I thought I should see a doc, not to mention that most of my housemates are also having cough and flu."

And he visibly relaxed. And then he smiled. "Yeah, some people take more time to build immunity towards cold." And he proceeded to do the usual checkup routine. Fever. Nopes. Flu. Yeaps. Cough. Yeaps.

And he charged me 55 bucks for medicine that I could have easily gotten at pharmacy. Dang.

There goes my money. If it wasn't the cough, I would have happily continued ignoring my cold and saved myself the 55 bucks. Ah... the things I could buy or eat with that medicine money.

Sobs!

Comfort food

I have found my new comfort food! Chipsmore and warm milk are like the best thing in this cool weather!

Even if no justification is needed, but I feel the need to do it. Chipsmore = chocolate. Chocolate plus warm milk. How can anyone say that's not comfort food?

XD

Frustration

Lately, I have been feeling a lot of negative emotions, so much that I can't focus on the positive emotions. Which is sad, because it makes me so negative and so angsty all the time, it's unhealthy. And I know it is unhealthy.

But the thing is, even if it's none of my business, somehow I still care. I don't know, maybe I'm just selfish because the "problems" that the person has seem to be constantly in my face, and I just didn't want to be bothered by other people's problem. Sometimes, I can't even seem to handle my own problems and emotions, and now I seem to be juggling someone else's.

Really, it just makes me feel angry and tired all the time. Maybe it really isn't my problem, so I should just not care at all. After all, it's not like it's MY business.

Or I could be worried about that person, because it seems self destructive to me, what that person has been unconsciously doing, but I like to think that I'm not such a caring and saintly person. So maybe it's just my fault that I seem to make that person's problem my problem too.

For my friends who had made me feel better, thank you. You know who you are. I really appreciate the kind words and concern.