I cannot forget the hurt and sadness that I felt. They are what made me who I am today, a part of me.

So, if I let go of those, am I still me?

Back again

I'm back in BP! Again!

I know, it seems like I'm forever in BP nowadays. It's just that, since my job starts in mid Nov, I see no point in staying in PJ for the whole week with no air-con (because my Tiara room is like an oven in the afternoon), no homecooked meal (it gets boring after a while, even if I do love tom yam very much, I couldn't possibly eat it everyday), no washing machine, and of course, no siblings and dogs (to annoy for my own amusement).

I'm happy to be home, but at the same time, I'm a bit, well, too comfortable being at home. It seems that after a whole month of lepak-ing at home, doing nothing much but idle, with occasional worry of FYP, I am feeling settled and comfy, in fact, so comfy that I am not sure how I am gonna handle work when I am supposed to start working.

I supposed it's bad that I became so lazy. Even if I feel a bit heartbroken (sob sob!) that my mum wouldn't let me lepak at home and be lazy, I supposed I can't go on with being lazy forever. Working will make a good experience, not to mention make me step out of my comfort zone.

Besides, with my bro and sis having exam right now, I don't think they will take my annoying them to amuse myself lightly. Already (even if it was just four days ago when I saw him) my bro looks unstable due to the stress of his exam.

Ah well, in the meantime, let me lepak for another week first. FYP and my beloved dogs shall be my companions since my sis and bro are not supposed to be kacau-ed.

Random conversation

"I want to watch 2012."

"It's not out in the cinema yet, is it?"

"November ler."

"It's supposed to be a doomsday prediction."

"Ya lor. On my birthday some more. Then we can celebrate my birthday, and while I am blowing the candles on my cake, the meteorite is going to crash and kill us all."

"LOL! Really ar?"

"Dunno. According to the prediction."

"Eh, like that I don't want to do my FYP already lar. What's the point? Later I susah payah finish my FYP, so ke lian, slave over it for one year, then graduate ady the meteorite is going to crash and kill us all. Waste my energy saja."

"Cheh. Then like that no need to work also lar, stay at home and be a couch potato saja."

"Ya lor, no need to study so hard for SPM ady. Woolala!"

"You happy lar!"

"Happy!"

Updates

I swear that I will start on my Chap 2 tomorrow, or else I am banned from the ice-cream in the fridge. And any other food loaded with sugar.

Anyways, I know I haven't blog for ages, but certainly not as long as a certain *ahem* person who goes by the name Boo Boo, who conveniently went MIA since her internship was over.

But I digress.

So, what have I been doing for the whole month? Nothing much, except to wait for my stupid result, which was heartbreaking, but nobody to blame but myself.

Other than that, I went to a few colleges and universities to give out surveys, and well, it was interesting to meet different students from different unis. Some were friendly, some were polite, some were rude, some were snobbish. However, everytime I got to a different uni/college, I couldn't help but think that why I am not in a uni with big campus and awesome library.

I also went to Singapore with six other friends. We went to NUS to use the library, and again, the library looked awesome. It inspired me to want to study a lot, and at the same time sleep a lot too, seeing as it was so comfortable. And when I was there, I met up with a friend that I haven't seen since two years ago, I think. Despite not seeing her for so long, she is still the same adorable girl that I know.

After staying in the posh lodging in NUS for two days, we moved to a backpacker lodging, where the seven of us buat bising and self-labelled ourselves as the Crazy Asian Girls. Long story, too lazy to write it all down.

Went sightseeing in Singapore before we left to come back to BP on Saturday. And since then, I have not start on my FYP.

But I swear, really, tomorrow! In the meantime, let me procrastinate for the night. I would have bugged my siblings, except that they are both in a bad mood due to their exams, so in the end I'm here, rambling.

Guy flick

We all know about chick flick. It's really easy to recognise a chick flick, really. All you need to do is look for posters with (90% of the time) white background, and a man and a woman (usually very leng chai and leng lui), or sometimes when it's not a man and a woman together, then it's just the woman herself. Other things that you should look out for when looking at a chick flick posters are colours like red, or pink.

The storyline is as cliche as you can imagine, of course. All the fluffiness, the happy endings. Aww... sweetness. But it usually started out with man and woman, they can't stand each other, and outta nowhere, love sneaks up to them and voila! They fall in love.

Anyways, this is not the reason why I am blogging now (other than to avoid studying, which I am supposed to be doing, btw). Zaza and I just finished, well, we skipped through the last hour, because I cannot tahan the stupidness of the story anymore, but anyways, we just watched "The last house on the left". And I believe since we have chick flick for movies that obviously chicks watch, surely we have guy flick that guys watch too.

In my humble opinion, surely "The last house on the left" fit neatly into this genre.

First of all, the main character, okay, characters, two of them are this blonde female, and quite attractive too. Then, the female characters will dress quite skimpily. Not to mention a lot of flashing here and there, one moment it's the thighs, the next the stomach, then the boobs and the butt.

Of course, a movie can't just be all about barely dressed females, as nice as it is to watch them prance around half naked on the screen. The next criteria is surely the storyline. It's way simple, and more often than not, it doesn't make any sense. The pretty female character will stupidly walk into a situation that will put herself in danger, and sometimes might do something that look quite brave and intelligent, only to end up useless, her effort, I mean. And usually, in between these scenes, as the story progresses, weird incidents, like the father asking the son to rape one of the girls that they held as hostages, will happen.

Anyways, ignore the female characters and the storyline for a while, the other characteristic of a guy flick will be blood and killing. The killing of the victim will be acted out in as much details as possible, and blood will be everywhere! And the more gory the killings are, the better. Preferably if the killings are not just random stabbing and shooting. Perhaps you should try sticking someone's head in a malfunctioning microwave oven and see if it will explode.

But pardon me, for I really can't be a good critic on this topic, seeing as I didn't finish watching the movie. I skipped through movie, and still managed to get the story, because after the weird raping scene (which we skipped) in the middle of the story, that did not make much sense to Zaza and I, I just got bored and decided not to waste my next hour watching the remaining movie.

Admittedly, I didn't go through the whole movie, but really, I don't see the point of watching. I was really disappointed though, I wanted to watch that movie when it was in the cinemas, and luckily, I didn't have the time to go, or else my money would have been wasted. The summary sounded interesting, and the poster looked promising. But alas, looks can be deceiving!

A letter

Hmm... I had just been home for about an hour or two, and my mum suddenly remembered that I have stack of letters waiting for me. All of them were sent to my old house's address, and admittedly, most of them aren't very urgent, except for the letter from PTPTN, which apparently dated from one year ago.

Oops.

Anyways, one of the letters from this surprisingly thick pile is this heavy letter from Ministry of Health. And I thought, I'm quite sure I have never been involved with anything related to MOH, and when I looked closer, the letter was actually from the MOH of Singapore, and not Malaysia!

So, curiously, I opened the letter. Again, this letter was dated a while back, sometime in June. It said "Congratulations! You will soon be turning 21 years old. This will, no doubt, be a major milestone in your life."

Wha?

Apparently, it is a letter asking for my consent to donate my organs to the MOH should I die. Along with this cheerful letter explaining what is going on, there was also a booklet on organ transplant in it. Truthfully speaking, I haven't started reading the booklet yet, but from what I have read from the letter, it sounds quite well, effective. I'm quite sure that our Malaysia's MOH won't take this kind of initiatives.

Really, can you imagine receiving a letter like this from MOH, persuading you to donate your organs to save a life, or perhaps two, when you are dead, at the moment you turned 21 because you are now a legal adult? Nopes, not me, and definitely not with Malaysia's MOH.

I'm waaaaaaaay impressed with the way MOH Singapore works. I probably should go read the booklet, but chances are, donate saja lar. If not my organs also rot under the ground. Better to have them save another life, right?

You know you are

1. Obsessed when you
a) Youtube said obsession
b) Google said obsession
c) Collect said obsession's pictures and realised what hair and clothes and expression work for said obsession (of course, please remember that I'm an amateur, so my opinions might not carry much weight)
d) Spent the last hour and so reading about said obsession's blogs even though they aren't very interesting

2. Vain when you
a) Start thinking about what hairstyle you want to cut the next time you visit the hair salon even though your hair isn't long enough to be even thinking about cutting
b) Mentally think about the clothing that you have in your wardrobe and categorising them into different style depending on what kind of image you want to portray
c) Start mentally thinking up potentials outfits with the clothes you currently have for places that you don't even go to
d) Think of all the accessories you have in your collection or the colours that you could have painted on your nails if you are not lazy

3. Homesick when you
a) Think about your dogs and thought about what to tell them when you see them
b) Brainstorm on the ways to annoy your sister and brother while you are at it
c) Consider about the things that you want to eat once you get back
d) Desperately miss your baby, your bed, your blanket, your room, and everything that's just not here with you right now

4. Bored when you
a) Youtube a lot
b) Google a lot
c) Facebook a lot
d) Sing till your throat starts to feel funny
e) Spend your precious 20 minutes writing stuff like you know you are obsessed/vain/homesick/bored when you