Last weekend was awesome. All the amazing people that I spent time with, not to mention the good food that I ate... totally worth the time spent travelling. Though... I kinda suspected my butt is a bit flatter due to the long bus journey. Lol.

Unfortunately for me, spending time with those lovely people just makes me miss them so much now. So I'm all alone in my room, emo-ing, and missing them while thinking if I made the right decision to move from the yam to the dot, leaving all the people that I now miss so desperately behind.

Not that I didn't get to meet lotsa other lovely people here, it's just that... I still miss the people back in the yam.

:(

Last Sunday was an awesome day. I shouldn't have, but I didn't regret any second of it. True, I was dead tired by the time I got home, but I wouldn't change anything.

Last weekend was graduation for the programme at preschool for the P1 and P2 kids. If I didn't mention it before, let me just say again, I love being at preschool. The kids are just darn adorable, and even if they are mischievous, their smiles and laughter just make your day better.

Anyways, I dropped by preschool on Sunday because it was my day-off and I knew they have graduation going on, so I had to go and see it for myself. When I got there, the head of the programme actually asked if I wanted to join the graduation and see it, and of course, I told her I love to.

The graduation was so much fun, but really, that wasn't really what I wanted to say. The kids are just amazing, in their own way. They are lively, they are vocal, they are innocent, they are naive, they are trusting. They are so accepting, that they just accepted me, a stranger, into their class on their graduation, without any suspicion.

Honestly, it never fails to amaze me how wonderful kids are. They forgive and forget so easily, and they are just so trusting and accepting that they will love you for you, just because you give them a hug and a smile.

Now, if only adults are as... untainted as kids. I'm sure the world will be a better place.

Dear retard,

I miss you, though I really wish I don't. It's been two weeks and more, and I still think about the what-could-have-been.

So many things that remind me of you, even though there really shouldn't have been so many. Little things remind me of something, and seriously, I really hate the feeling. So much that I wish that it had never happened before. Not to mention the promise that was never kept, it hurts to think about it. Didn't I tell you how seriously I take promises, and asked you not to make one just because? I shoulda known better than to trust mere words.

But it's a learning process. You made me realise who I am, and now I am even more sure of who I am and who I am not. I have never really been a lost soul who don't know herself, but thank you for reminding me of how strong I can be. I supposed everyone needs a bit of reminding once in a while.

Still, I know this is gonna sound conceited, but I really want to say this: not being able to love me for who I am, it's not my fault, it's your loss. Even though I might miss you and think about the what-could-have-been, I will never accept anything less than someone who can love me for who I am, not who he wants me to be. I might not be perfect, but I love myself just the way I am, and will never change it for anyone who doesn't love me enough to accept me the way I am. And of course, if you truely love me, you wouldn't have tried to change me either.

Anyhow, quoting Sara's song: "I'll be alright, just not tonight." I'll get over it, I'll be bouncing back to normalcy, I just wish it's sooner rather than later. Because honestly, I rather be doing something more productive than missing you.