Is something that I definitely don't have.
Today, there was a group of Japanese students from Kyoto University in my uni, visiting. Apparently, that was their graduation trip, and all I can say is "Sweet! To have a graduation trip away from where you are from." Imagine the culture and all the other junks that you don't see in textbooks.
Anyways, a bunch of us went there to meet up with them, but when we got there, we found out that we weren't actually officially invited. In fact, we were sort of crashing people's party, though of course, when we realised that the party hadn't started yet.
But the lecturers were kind enough to let us in. They were friendly, asking us to not be shy and just go in and interact with the Japanese students. Because really, that's what we were there for.
But then, instead of socialising, I had felt kinda awkward, since I couldn't really stop thinking about crashing the party. And when I got into the room, I stood there like a deer caught in headlights, while watching my friends worked their charms on the Japanese students and striking up conversation after conversation.
It's safe to say that I took one look at the small, crowded room, the group of people talking, and the feeling as though I can't really breathe properly in the crowd and small room, and made a quick decision that I had to get out of there.
Well... the breathing part was probably due to my own imagination, but then again, I tend to feel as though I can't breathe properly when I am in a crowded place.
So much for my attempt to socialise. Seriously, I can't imagine how I am going to survive once I am out of the safe circle of my current life once I venture into the working world, where I definitely will need to socialise to widen my social network.
Die.
6 comments:
Jo, you are not the only one. It's definitely not cool that we feel like the odd one out whereas everyone else is chatting cooly as if they have known the hosts for an eternity.
I myself hate to attend these kinda functions, and if I do, i'd try to make myself occupied by messaging my friends how bored I am or actually strike a conversation, the latter being so rare that when it happens, the moon turns Purple.
So let's try to go through this sucky thing together and make our lives happier afterwards!
*btw, i changed ur name on my blog ;)
darling... don worry.. it happens to me all the time too.. i usually just stare into space and wondering when the hell i could escape.. and i'm sure u can survive the working world.. it'll be fine.. muacks.. hugs and kisses for my darling..
yays! i'm not the only odd one out.
kung! u r the one who escaped that thing after u told miss angie u r going!
Kumi and I changed our minds when we stepped out of the Uni. It can't be helped. :)
well... i think sometimes it is better when we dont really talk too much. hmm... to know when to keep our mouth shut, or not overly friendly where people will condemn you are pretending or simply too nosy. cant please everyone thou.. anyway, key point is, we can never find a RIGHT way to socialise,this is not "TRUE or FALSE" statement where people dont have the authority to judge who we really are.
Whatever it is, maybe we can try a little bit at a time. It is indeed very hard for me, but i'll never give up, even knowing that to mingle with people is not easy. Knowing that i have a group of friend like you guys give me extra strength and believe i can achieve whatever i want, to grow and be a better person =)
I hope the same apply to you.
Good luck my dear =)
Let's work on it together.
Thanks for everything for all these years.
Mucks~
p/s maybe the comment you may find not too relevent to ur post, but i just feel that it is also part of socializing isn't it? eventhou ur situation here is a lil diff from what i wrote.
eh.. paiseh. forgot to write my name for the post. Is me lar.. haha..
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