Sometimes, it's always good to remind yourself that even when someone is rude to you, trying to put you down, you DON'T have to retaliate. Not because you are speechless and hurt from the rudeness that the person directed at you, but because you will not sink so low like that person. Just because the person is trying to make you feel inferior, doesn't mean you have to act as though you are really inferior to that person. You do not have to act as ugly and rude as the person to prove that you are better, because you ARE better when you don't fall for the bait and sink as low as that person.
But DAMN. Sometimes, I just feel like retaliating, because seriously, I don't like to be regarded as a retard. But of course, I have more dignity than to bite back at you like the sad, lonely and insecure person that you are.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Why it is dangerous to drive at night (in Malaysia)
1. There are lotsa booby traps around (read: The roads' condition are so well that you are bound to encounter a few bumps and holes everytime you drive).
2. The booby traps then cause people to swerve around like nobody's business.
3. And when people swerve around like nobody's business, you have inconsiderate drivers.
4. Speaking of inconsiderate drivers, you also have motorists who like to wear dark clothings.
5. Which are not very visible to other drivers because apparently JPJ doesn't think it's important to keep our roads well lit.
6. And because of the very unwell lit roads, the drivers can only see as far as their headlights can shine.
7. And let's not forget the headlights can't shine that far, so most drivers probably can't see the other motorists who are wearing dark coloured clothes and the booby traps laid around.
8. Which again, inevitably, leads to driving that seems to be inconsiderate when the drivers need to avoid the other motorists or booby traps.
Ah... now I feel better for not being the best drivers around when it's night time.
2. The booby traps then cause people to swerve around like nobody's business.
3. And when people swerve around like nobody's business, you have inconsiderate drivers.
4. Speaking of inconsiderate drivers, you also have motorists who like to wear dark clothings.
5. Which are not very visible to other drivers because apparently JPJ doesn't think it's important to keep our roads well lit.
6. And because of the very unwell lit roads, the drivers can only see as far as their headlights can shine.
7. And let's not forget the headlights can't shine that far, so most drivers probably can't see the other motorists who are wearing dark coloured clothes and the booby traps laid around.
8. Which again, inevitably, leads to driving that seems to be inconsiderate when the drivers need to avoid the other motorists or booby traps.
Ah... now I feel better for not being the best drivers around when it's night time.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Sometimes I think I'm getting a bit too old for comfort. Or perhaps, I should say that I outgrew my childishness. Better yet, I like to say that teenagers nowadays (yes, I'm very aware that I just left teenage years not so long ago) seem to be growing up very fast.
This afternoon, I was shamelessly eavesdropping on a couple of 16-year-old girls. Yes, I know, I'm not exactly the best mannered person, especially when I am bored. Anyways, I was listening to their conversation, which mainly revolved around fashion, makeup, studies, guys and girls, and shockingly, weight. I am a bit shocked, because even though my sis is kinda vain, she isn't very into makeup and all, and even if she does go a bit gaga over guys, it was never in front of me (well, if you don't count Korean pop stars).
So the two girls were firstly talking about their clothes, and what made them decide to wear such and such clothes on this fateful afternoon. And to think I thought I am fussy enough when it comes to choosing clothes to wear, I'm surprised to find that they are so aware of what to wear to where and why. And when I thought about whether I was that particular about my choice of clothing when I was 16, I realised that I wasn't as, say, detail-oriented, as they do.
Then the conversation moved towards their studies, which seemed to be quite innocent and casual. And then they started talking about guys and girls. Some guys and girls who are quite good looking, who is dating who. Okay... sound casual and innocent enough. And then they started talking about girls who put their pictures up on Facebook, except that those pictures didn't showcase their best angle! I was a bit stunned by this, because I wasn't even aware that you should only upload your perfect picture which captured your best angle.
So... and then they started discussing about different eyeliner and eyeshadow that they use! I'm 22, and frankly speaking, I am just way too lazy to put on makeup on regular basis in order to beautify myself. And when I listened to their conversation, it seems that they know more about makeup than I do!
.... I don't even know if I should be proud or ashamed of my own ignorance.
Anyways, the thing that shocked me the most is that they are talking about how fat they have become. And seriously, those girls are anything but fat, and they seem genuinely concerned about their weight! Like, really, they aren't even done growing yet and they are concerned about their weight?!
.... I don't even know how to react to that.
This afternoon, I was shamelessly eavesdropping on a couple of 16-year-old girls. Yes, I know, I'm not exactly the best mannered person, especially when I am bored. Anyways, I was listening to their conversation, which mainly revolved around fashion, makeup, studies, guys and girls, and shockingly, weight. I am a bit shocked, because even though my sis is kinda vain, she isn't very into makeup and all, and even if she does go a bit gaga over guys, it was never in front of me (well, if you don't count Korean pop stars).
So the two girls were firstly talking about their clothes, and what made them decide to wear such and such clothes on this fateful afternoon. And to think I thought I am fussy enough when it comes to choosing clothes to wear, I'm surprised to find that they are so aware of what to wear to where and why. And when I thought about whether I was that particular about my choice of clothing when I was 16, I realised that I wasn't as, say, detail-oriented, as they do.
Then the conversation moved towards their studies, which seemed to be quite innocent and casual. And then they started talking about guys and girls. Some guys and girls who are quite good looking, who is dating who. Okay... sound casual and innocent enough. And then they started talking about girls who put their pictures up on Facebook, except that those pictures didn't showcase their best angle! I was a bit stunned by this, because I wasn't even aware that you should only upload your perfect picture which captured your best angle.
So... and then they started discussing about different eyeliner and eyeshadow that they use! I'm 22, and frankly speaking, I am just way too lazy to put on makeup on regular basis in order to beautify myself. And when I listened to their conversation, it seems that they know more about makeup than I do!
.... I don't even know if I should be proud or ashamed of my own ignorance.
Anyways, the thing that shocked me the most is that they are talking about how fat they have become. And seriously, those girls are anything but fat, and they seem genuinely concerned about their weight! Like, really, they aren't even done growing yet and they are concerned about their weight?!
.... I don't even know how to react to that.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
War zone
One very, very hot but fine afternoon...
Me: Ugh! Die, you nasty things, DIE! *stomps stomps*
A couple of hours later...
Bro: Oh wow... that's a lot of blood.
Me: Yea... it's a war zone.
Bro: They got past the defence line, but they shall never enter the fortress! Muahaha!
Me: *smirks* Here lies all the dead bodies. The fortress remains safe!
Another couple of hours later...
Sis: Eww! Blood!
Me: It's a war zone. *nods solemnly*
Sis: What war zone? *confused*
Bro and I rolled our eyes and proceeded to ignore our sis.
Me: Ugh! Die, you nasty things, DIE! *stomps stomps*
A couple of hours later...
Bro: Oh wow... that's a lot of blood.
Me: Yea... it's a war zone.
Bro: They got past the defence line, but they shall never enter the fortress! Muahaha!
Me: *smirks* Here lies all the dead bodies. The fortress remains safe!
Another couple of hours later...
Sis: Eww! Blood!
Me: It's a war zone. *nods solemnly*
Sis: What war zone? *confused*
Bro and I rolled our eyes and proceeded to ignore our sis.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Convo
I feel bad and ungrateful. It seems that I am the only one who isn't excited about MY convocation. Even my brother who is supposedly totally, utterly dedicated to his studies wanted to go to my convo, except that he's having his trial exam, so he can't go.
The thing is, I am grateful that I seem to have friends and family who want to attend my convo. I appreciate it so much, but at the same time, I don't want them to be wasting time, waiting there, when I know that the whole thing is gonna take a long time. For what? My five seconds of fame. It's not even that gloat-worthy, honestly, that five-second fame. Seeing as so many people are gonna be before and after me that I probably can't even flash a eye-blinding smile at the camera before they oh-so-politely-rude usher me away. Not to mention that I can only bring in two guests, so there will only be two of my family members who will be there to witness my five seconds of fame.
Ah well, I supposed I should be more excited about it. But it's hard to muster up the enthusiasm when I have to be there by 7.30. Like harloow, 7.30 AM, in a robe that is gonna make you look like an unflattering bat, and sit there for hours in a (probably not-so-comfy) chair and listen to (very, ahem, inspiring and touching) speech when my brain hates me for having to wake up at a time when it shouldn't even be awake. Pardon me while I'm not as chirpy as a bird.
But one should always look at the positive side of things. Because I know that I will be meeting all my EL mates who I miss so very much, all the things mentioned in the rants will be worth enduring.
The thing is, I am grateful that I seem to have friends and family who want to attend my convo. I appreciate it so much, but at the same time, I don't want them to be wasting time, waiting there, when I know that the whole thing is gonna take a long time. For what? My five seconds of fame. It's not even that gloat-worthy, honestly, that five-second fame. Seeing as so many people are gonna be before and after me that I probably can't even flash a eye-blinding smile at the camera before they oh-so-politely-rude usher me away. Not to mention that I can only bring in two guests, so there will only be two of my family members who will be there to witness my five seconds of fame.
Ah well, I supposed I should be more excited about it. But it's hard to muster up the enthusiasm when I have to be there by 7.30. Like harloow, 7.30 AM, in a robe that is gonna make you look like an unflattering bat, and sit there for hours in a (probably not-so-comfy) chair and listen to (very, ahem, inspiring and touching) speech when my brain hates me for having to wake up at a time when it shouldn't even be awake. Pardon me while I'm not as chirpy as a bird.
But one should always look at the positive side of things. Because I know that I will be meeting all my EL mates who I miss so very much, all the things mentioned in the rants will be worth enduring.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
The past 14 days (today included) must have been the most tiring and emotionally-draining days of my life so far. But I supposed, I HOPE, that misfortunes come in three, so after this, I hope my life will go smoothly.
But really, despite having the misfortunes, I hate that I am making people worry about me because of those misfortunes. If I wasn't so upset that I make so many people worry about me, I would have milked the sympathy for all its worth. Hmm...
On the other hand, I feel like slapping my brother for being an insensitive jerk. After all, it was partially his fault that I was caught in the third misfortune. My brother is really no good for anything other than killing cockroaches and carrying heavy groceries. -.-'''
But really, despite having the misfortunes, I hate that I am making people worry about me because of those misfortunes. If I wasn't so upset that I make so many people worry about me, I would have milked the sympathy for all its worth. Hmm...
On the other hand, I feel like slapping my brother for being an insensitive jerk. After all, it was partially his fault that I was caught in the third misfortune. My brother is really no good for anything other than killing cockroaches and carrying heavy groceries. -.-'''
Friday, July 16, 2010
Birthday
Aish... Shoulda went and watch Despicable Me, or Inception instead of Predators. The movie was just kinda disappointing.
Well, at least the company's good. I even got a chocolate cake, which I didn't manage to share with the people who gave it to me, because my mum wanted me to go back home immediately after the movie. Luckily for me, no high-tech alien waiting to ambush me when I got back home. Surely there are scarier things out there than aliens who evolved super duper fast. Hmm...
Anyways, I was thanking all the bday wishes on Facebook when I suddenly thought of something. It's kinda... sad? That we rely so much on Facebook. Gone were the days that we wish other people Happy Birthday face-to-face or through phonecalls. Now, we Facebook our happy birthday wishes!
Really, I shouldn't complain. Without Facebook, most people's bday won't even register to me cause I can't remember them.
Well, at least the company's good. I even got a chocolate cake, which I didn't manage to share with the people who gave it to me, because my mum wanted me to go back home immediately after the movie. Luckily for me, no high-tech alien waiting to ambush me when I got back home. Surely there are scarier things out there than aliens who evolved super duper fast. Hmm...
Anyways, I was thanking all the bday wishes on Facebook when I suddenly thought of something. It's kinda... sad? That we rely so much on Facebook. Gone were the days that we wish other people Happy Birthday face-to-face or through phonecalls. Now, we Facebook our happy birthday wishes!
Really, I shouldn't complain. Without Facebook, most people's bday won't even register to me cause I can't remember them.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
It's hard finding good anime to watch! Gaaaaaaah!! Sometimes the drawing is not pretty enough. And when it does, the storyline is lame. And when the storyline isn't lame, you have annoying female characters with impossibly large boobs that are bouncing everywhere everytime they move! Seriously, people who draw female characters like that MUST be males, because females will know AND are clever enough to understand the logic of not having boobs that are so big that they will break your spine. Seriously, females with those kind of figures don't exist in real life, not unless they are surgically enhanced. -.-'''
FMA... I mourn your ending. T-T
FMA... I mourn your ending. T-T
Monday, July 5, 2010
The end of a much loved anime
Equivalent exchange! I'll give you half of my life if you will give me half of yours.
As far as marriage proposal goes, this is by far the most unromantic, and the cutest.
Ah well, as expected from the mangaka who, when asked to draw herself, drew herself as a dancing cow in underwear.
FMA Brotherhood has officially ended, and as awesome as it is, watching the whole series and ending it, I am going to miss the characters. They are such endearing characters, even if they are just anime characters, and more often than not, they have cheered my day.
But I have no complaints. It was a good anime, despite cursing and swearing every week for the cliff hanger that the mangaka left at every episode, it will always be one of my all-time favourite.
As far as marriage proposal goes, this is by far the most unromantic, and the cutest.
Ah well, as expected from the mangaka who, when asked to draw herself, drew herself as a dancing cow in underwear.
FMA Brotherhood has officially ended, and as awesome as it is, watching the whole series and ending it, I am going to miss the characters. They are such endearing characters, even if they are just anime characters, and more often than not, they have cheered my day.
But I have no complaints. It was a good anime, despite cursing and swearing every week for the cliff hanger that the mangaka left at every episode, it will always be one of my all-time favourite.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Jojo is an emotional wreck. She slept for three hours last night because she was too nervous to sleep, so she is currently sleep deprived. Not to mention the interview still has some after effect on her. Hence, she is an emotional wreck, for now.
And that is why she almost cried after watching Edward saved Al, and they lived happily ever after! Okay, she doesn't know if they live happily ever after, but Al is saved, and the world is saved too! Well, their world, and everything is fine. So for now, it's happily ever after for Jojo (And Jojo's eyes are swimming with unshed tears because she is so touched, but shh... you don't need to know that).
Don't worry, she will return to normal after a good night sleep and some ice-cream.
And that is why she almost cried after watching Edward saved Al, and they lived happily ever after! Okay, she doesn't know if they live happily ever after, but Al is saved, and the world is saved too! Well, their world, and everything is fine. So for now, it's happily ever after for Jojo (And Jojo's eyes are swimming with unshed tears because she is so touched, but shh... you don't need to know that).
Don't worry, she will return to normal after a good night sleep and some ice-cream.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Attention span (ahem) getting shorter
I think... my attention span is getting shorter and shorter. Not that I'm proud of it or what.
I used to take a day or two to finish a book. Now I take a week or two (if I didn't forget about the book by that time) to finish a book. Reason: I can't get beyond 10 pages in one reading. Which is kinda sad, because I used to be able to read a book in one go if no one interrupts me.
I have never been a fan of TV shows. I can't stay still to watch a movie, unless you bring me to the cinema, which then, I will be forced to sit there and watch the whole thing (but you will see me checking the time constantly to see how long it will be before the movie ends and I can move about again), nor am I fond of drama series which need me to constantly keep track of what's going on.
I can watch anime, which is usually 20 minutes, more or less, per episode. But I take breaks between episodes. I can never go on marathon, movie, series (with the exception of Fringe, which I am obsessed with, and dying to get my hands on season 3, except that it's not even out yet), or anime.
But now, my attention is seriously getting worse. I can't even finish watching a 20-mins anime without pausing a few times in between to go do some other things! I'm currently watching an anime on Youtube, and every episode has three parts, roughly 8-9 mins a part, and I stopped at least once when watching every part.
Apparently, my attention span is now shorter than the estimated 8 minutes span. It is now approximately 4 minutes. Seriously. Just let me narrate a bit on what I do in the afternoon these few days (when I'm not being an Ahmad for my siblings).
Load Youtube videos, open fiction pages, check my Google Reader, click on lotsa articles that interest me, check out blogs, watch videos for like 4 mins, read half a page of a fiction, click MORE articles from my Google Reader, read one of the articles that I clicked, read blog, read half a page of the article, go back and finish the fiction that I abandoned half way, finish watching the video, read one of the articles that I clicked, go off and kacau my siblings, read another article, go and TV-surf, watch another video halfway, head off to find food.
Ah yes... it's a mess, I know. Makes me wonder how am I going to survive when I'm working, and I won't have the luxury to have an attention span that is only 4 minutes long.
I think... I better start working on making my attention span longer.
I used to take a day or two to finish a book. Now I take a week or two (if I didn't forget about the book by that time) to finish a book. Reason: I can't get beyond 10 pages in one reading. Which is kinda sad, because I used to be able to read a book in one go if no one interrupts me.
I have never been a fan of TV shows. I can't stay still to watch a movie, unless you bring me to the cinema, which then, I will be forced to sit there and watch the whole thing (but you will see me checking the time constantly to see how long it will be before the movie ends and I can move about again), nor am I fond of drama series which need me to constantly keep track of what's going on.
I can watch anime, which is usually 20 minutes, more or less, per episode. But I take breaks between episodes. I can never go on marathon, movie, series (with the exception of Fringe, which I am obsessed with, and dying to get my hands on season 3, except that it's not even out yet), or anime.
But now, my attention is seriously getting worse. I can't even finish watching a 20-mins anime without pausing a few times in between to go do some other things! I'm currently watching an anime on Youtube, and every episode has three parts, roughly 8-9 mins a part, and I stopped at least once when watching every part.
Apparently, my attention span is now shorter than the estimated 8 minutes span. It is now approximately 4 minutes. Seriously. Just let me narrate a bit on what I do in the afternoon these few days (when I'm not being an Ahmad for my siblings).
Load Youtube videos, open fiction pages, check my Google Reader, click on lotsa articles that interest me, check out blogs, watch videos for like 4 mins, read half a page of a fiction, click MORE articles from my Google Reader, read one of the articles that I clicked, read blog, read half a page of the article, go back and finish the fiction that I abandoned half way, finish watching the video, read one of the articles that I clicked, go off and kacau my siblings, read another article, go and TV-surf, watch another video halfway, head off to find food.
Ah yes... it's a mess, I know. Makes me wonder how am I going to survive when I'm working, and I won't have the luxury to have an attention span that is only 4 minutes long.
I think... I better start working on making my attention span longer.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
My gullible sister
This is totally pointless, but since I'm bored, and one day I'm gonna look back and remember my sis used to be this gullible.
Bro: Eh... my friend said the spelling competition will be on air ler. Die.
Sis: What spelling competition? What on a-
Me: (interrupts sis before she can finish so that Bro will have no time to answer) On air means the competition will be held on an aeroplane.
Sis: Wah, TKY, you take part in competition ar?
Bro: (smugs) Ya lar, peringkat daerah some more. (stops for a while) But then, I'm probably gonna blank out when I'm on air.
Me: (smirks) You better not do as horribly as the people in the Spelling Bee competition which I happened to watch in Kuantan. I'll disown you, seriously.
Sis: (ignores Me) Why blank out? Being on plane trying to spell things very scary mer?
(Bro and I stare at my sis for a moment, speechless)
Me: .... Being on air means it will be broadcasted.
Sis: (stuns) Not on aeroplane?
So, yes, my sis can be quite gullible at times.
And not to forget, my sis INSISTED that I tell the world that she's back from NS. Hence my house has been noisier than it used to be two weeks ago.
But of course, that means an extra sibling to bully and laugh at and tease and annoy. So I really can't complain. :D
Bro: Eh... my friend said the spelling competition will be on air ler. Die.
Sis: What spelling competition? What on a-
Me: (interrupts sis before she can finish so that Bro will have no time to answer) On air means the competition will be held on an aeroplane.
Sis: Wah, TKY, you take part in competition ar?
Bro: (smugs) Ya lar, peringkat daerah some more. (stops for a while) But then, I'm probably gonna blank out when I'm on air.
Me: (smirks) You better not do as horribly as the people in the Spelling Bee competition which I happened to watch in Kuantan. I'll disown you, seriously.
Sis: (ignores Me) Why blank out? Being on plane trying to spell things very scary mer?
(Bro and I stare at my sis for a moment, speechless)
Me: .... Being on air means it will be broadcasted.
Sis: (stuns) Not on aeroplane?
So, yes, my sis can be quite gullible at times.
And not to forget, my sis INSISTED that I tell the world that she's back from NS. Hence my house has been noisier than it used to be two weeks ago.
But of course, that means an extra sibling to bully and laugh at and tease and annoy. So I really can't complain. :D
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Chasing my muse
Two days ago, I was rereading one of the one-shots (because I was bored) that I didn't manage to finish. And of course, being the slacker that I am, naturally I have a few lying around, just waiting for me to complete them.
It so happened that I usually remember the plot that I planned out for those fics even though I have left them hanging for quite some time. So, when I was reading the one that was supposed to be completed looooong ago, which was suggested by Farah, suddenly, my muse came back! (Which might not be such a weird thing, except that I haven't had this overwhelming urge to write ever since I stepped into university.) And my brain was filled with all the words and sentences that flowed perfectly for the continuation of the fic!
Happily, I settled down comfortably, prepared to finish the darn one-shot that I left hanging for ages. Then I saw the digits on the clock. Damn... it was late, and I needed to shower! Indecision warred inside of me. Should I finish my one-shot, and shower waaaaaaaay later, or shower first and hope my muse will not abandon me while I shower?
In the end, I decided to shower first, which I did quite quickly, and then, when I settled back and prepared to start writing, I realised my muse had went away.
Darn.
And even though I tried writing anyways, the words just didn't seem right, and in the end, even though I left what I wrote there, the next time I read it again, I probably will delete the whole section off anyways.
It so happened that I usually remember the plot that I planned out for those fics even though I have left them hanging for quite some time. So, when I was reading the one that was supposed to be completed looooong ago, which was suggested by Farah, suddenly, my muse came back! (Which might not be such a weird thing, except that I haven't had this overwhelming urge to write ever since I stepped into university.) And my brain was filled with all the words and sentences that flowed perfectly for the continuation of the fic!
Happily, I settled down comfortably, prepared to finish the darn one-shot that I left hanging for ages. Then I saw the digits on the clock. Damn... it was late, and I needed to shower! Indecision warred inside of me. Should I finish my one-shot, and shower waaaaaaaay later, or shower first and hope my muse will not abandon me while I shower?
In the end, I decided to shower first, which I did quite quickly, and then, when I settled back and prepared to start writing, I realised my muse had went away.
Darn.
And even though I tried writing anyways, the words just didn't seem right, and in the end, even though I left what I wrote there, the next time I read it again, I probably will delete the whole section off anyways.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Redang!
Amazing how when you are enjoying yourself, tan and sunburn apparently are not as bad as you think.
In fact, I think I enjoyed being in Redang so much that I was actually thinking I don't mind being as tanned as the snorkelling instructors there if I get to spend so much time at the sea.
Going to Redang was, well, a long bus ride. 8 hours of bus ride, almost 2 hours of ferry ride. But it was all worth it in the end! The sight that greeted us was so freaking awesome! Endless stretch of blue green sea, clear blue sky with white puffy clouds, and soft sand.
Three days and two nights were just not enough. I enjoyed snorkelling, though poor Chibi-san and Enyi were being held hostages by me most of the time. The corals and fishes were an interesting sight to behold, and drifting and floating with the life jacket could be scarily fun.
Kayaking was awesome! Despite not having any arm strength to make the kayak move and my paranoia (Sorry, Denise-sama!), it was still an amazing thing to do. The waves that rocked the boat, the sky and sea that seemed endless, the magnificent eagle that soared and gave us a cheap thrill. Lol. It was just fun.
I regretted not having enough time to chill and relax on the beach. Despite giving up a snorkelling trip, I still did not manage to have some time to just sit on the beach and enjoy the sunshine. I deeply regretted not having the chance to chill on the hammock while reading a book, with the sun warming and baking my skin. Not to mention I was so busy playing at the sea that I didn't even have time to check out if there are any hot guys there!
Oh well, at least I got to spend time with my EL mates. It's sad that we are all going our own separate ways, and basically I'm just trying not to think too much about it because it makes me emo. But, really, it's only the second day that I'm back from Redang and I already miss them.
In fact, I think I enjoyed being in Redang so much that I was actually thinking I don't mind being as tanned as the snorkelling instructors there if I get to spend so much time at the sea.
Going to Redang was, well, a long bus ride. 8 hours of bus ride, almost 2 hours of ferry ride. But it was all worth it in the end! The sight that greeted us was so freaking awesome! Endless stretch of blue green sea, clear blue sky with white puffy clouds, and soft sand.
Three days and two nights were just not enough. I enjoyed snorkelling, though poor Chibi-san and Enyi were being held hostages by me most of the time. The corals and fishes were an interesting sight to behold, and drifting and floating with the life jacket could be scarily fun.
Kayaking was awesome! Despite not having any arm strength to make the kayak move and my paranoia (Sorry, Denise-sama!), it was still an amazing thing to do. The waves that rocked the boat, the sky and sea that seemed endless, the magnificent eagle that soared and gave us a cheap thrill. Lol. It was just fun.
I regretted not having enough time to chill and relax on the beach. Despite giving up a snorkelling trip, I still did not manage to have some time to just sit on the beach and enjoy the sunshine. I deeply regretted not having the chance to chill on the hammock while reading a book, with the sun warming and baking my skin. Not to mention I was so busy playing at the sea that I didn't even have time to check out if there are any hot guys there!
Oh well, at least I got to spend time with my EL mates. It's sad that we are all going our own separate ways, and basically I'm just trying not to think too much about it because it makes me emo. But, really, it's only the second day that I'm back from Redang and I already miss them.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
The end of my Uni life
I think... it finally sinks in that I'm graduating. Not that I wasn't aware of it till now, but the full impact of what I am feeling only hit me just recently.
The heavy rain outside certainly didn't help with my mood. Rainy days always make me sad and melancholy, for some odd reason. Hence, I'm basically being emo now thinking about how much I'm gonna miss my uni life and my EL mates.
Of course, I will not miss the stress from assignments, FYP or exams. But after three years of being with my EL mates, I can't imagine life without them. It's only been a two weeks since we finished the last paper, and I am already missing them dreadfully.
I miss being in class actually. I miss hanging out with my classmates. I miss eating breakfast with my assignment mates, Pei Ling, Zaza, Amelia, and sometimes Xia Xia. I miss talking and joking with my classmates during the short breaks we had during class. I miss using Denise, Alex and Esther as heater when the air-con in UTAR threatened to turn me into human icicle.
It saddens me to know that in the future, I might not be able to hang out with them as often as when we were in class. In fact, I'm not even sure how often we will see each other because everyone will be going his/her own way. And frankly, I'm just very bad at keeping in touch with my old buddies.
Well, I supposed there's still Redang trip, and also our convo. Too bad that some EL mates aren't going for the trip. If everyone is there, it will have made the trip all the more fun.
The heavy rain outside certainly didn't help with my mood. Rainy days always make me sad and melancholy, for some odd reason. Hence, I'm basically being emo now thinking about how much I'm gonna miss my uni life and my EL mates.
Of course, I will not miss the stress from assignments, FYP or exams. But after three years of being with my EL mates, I can't imagine life without them. It's only been a two weeks since we finished the last paper, and I am already missing them dreadfully.
I miss being in class actually. I miss hanging out with my classmates. I miss eating breakfast with my assignment mates, Pei Ling, Zaza, Amelia, and sometimes Xia Xia. I miss talking and joking with my classmates during the short breaks we had during class. I miss using Denise, Alex and Esther as heater when the air-con in UTAR threatened to turn me into human icicle.
It saddens me to know that in the future, I might not be able to hang out with them as often as when we were in class. In fact, I'm not even sure how often we will see each other because everyone will be going his/her own way. And frankly, I'm just very bad at keeping in touch with my old buddies.
Well, I supposed there's still Redang trip, and also our convo. Too bad that some EL mates aren't going for the trip. If everyone is there, it will have made the trip all the more fun.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Lost
I am lazy most of the time. I like aimlessly doing not-so-important stuff like online, read fics and manga, and watch anime.
But contrary to popular belief, I don't like feeling lost. And seriously, I have never felt more lost than I am right now.
So, can you stop please asking me what am I going to do with my future and look at me as though you can't believe I enjoy drifting around aimlessly with no real purpose in life when I answer "I don't know"?
On the other hand, it seems that I'm gonna keep this blog alive. Not having a place to write what I feel and thought is kinda a pain, and I miss writing, even if it's just random babble in my blog. :)
But contrary to popular belief, I don't like feeling lost. And seriously, I have never felt more lost than I am right now.
So, can you stop please asking me what am I going to do with my future and look at me as though you can't believe I enjoy drifting around aimlessly with no real purpose in life when I answer "I don't know"?
On the other hand, it seems that I'm gonna keep this blog alive. Not having a place to write what I feel and thought is kinda a pain, and I miss writing, even if it's just random babble in my blog. :)
Sunday, January 10, 2010
The night sky
Sometimes, it only took a comment like "Hey! Look at all the stars!" to make me realise that despite everything else, there are always going to be things like this, beautiful stuff, that cancel out all the ugliness of the world.
But hey, seriously, if I could share the piece of night sky that I was appreciating with my brother just now with everyone else, I would.
It was just that beautiful. :D
But hey, seriously, if I could share the piece of night sky that I was appreciating with my brother just now with everyone else, I would.
It was just that beautiful. :D
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